The Violet Dreams.

time for fantastic mr. fox!!

:)

bye for now

I am putting together a playlist for my birthday party

even though it’s not going to be for three weeks, I’m just excited so I’m putting together a playlist, and it’s fun!!

and I seriously need to rent some awesome strobe lights of some sort and perhaps black lights to make it really cool

My heart is utterly shattered.

frogsandcrowns:

I actually want to die.

And it’s not his fault, it’s all mine. I’m going to tell you all what happened to see if you guys can figure out what’s wrong with me, okay?

So there’s this Boy. And he’s loved me for a long time. And i didn’t love him until up until a month or so ago. And then we got closer and closer until we were caught up in a passion so deep i’d never felt anything like it. On thursday it took me over so i couldn’t look at him. So he got sad. So i hugged him. And we made up so much i said we could “go out”. On friday morning he kissed me and i started shaking really badly, and i was so happy but so shocked that something good had happened to me. All morning we held hands and hugged and loved but i was really shy and it put him on edge. Then all these girls started spreading a rumour that i was stuck and i couldn’t kiss him. And that got me down and he couldn’t look at me and i started crying and so he said “i’m sorry, but i can’t do this” and then that was it. We talking on IM last night but he wouldn’t say much exept that it wasn’t my fault when is WAS and that he didn’t hate me. Now he’s not online and last night i took a load of sleeping pills and painkillers and stuff to try and stop the pain in my chest and i said stupid stuff like i wanted to try again and stuff and all my clothes smell like him and i still love him. I don’t know what to do.

 I am so sorry, Ella. you’ll be okay. fuck, I really am sorry and don’t take it too hard on yourself. how you feel and what you did in the situation is understandable and don’t take too many pills but yes you’re allowed to be sad and to cry just try and enjoy other things and don’t think that it’s the end of everything. things will get better, love is difficult but you’ll be okay.